The day after......

It's the day after Christmas. Yesterday we woke up early opened all the gifts got dressed and where out the door on the way to my sister in laws house. We did brunch their and more gifts then onto my father in laws house for yet again more gifts and dinner the. Relaxed and home. It was a very long day. I even got a nap in but that doesn't seem to have helped much. I was on Dramamine all day yesterday and I'm still needin it today. Oh how I'm tired of taking pills. My Christmas gift of a diagnosis did not come through. :(. I really really just wanna feel better. Three days ago my sister told me to just get over my health problems. How do I do that? How do I get over these neurological problems. Easy right. Lol. Ya right. I will never be the same. And she thinks it's easy to do. I try my hardest and do a great job at not letting MS run my life but something's just can't happen anymore. Oh well I guess. My Christmas was great. I got the open heart necklace i had been wanting. I also got some books and a nice comfy blanket. We got a pizza stone, picture frame, cash and a new clock. Not to bad. We had a blast. George got spoiled but what's new their. Im honestly just happy it's over. It was a lot on me and I just need some rest. I have barely moved from the couch and as I type I'm getting ready to take some more pills. Hope everyone else had a great Christmas! Now to rest and do it all next year!

Insomnia how I hate you!

So it's 2am and what am I doing. Watching another movie alone. I watched soul surfer and now I'm onto change it up! I've wrapped Christmas presents and am now thinking of cleaning the house. Obviously this is odd behavior for someone at 2 am. Two weeks ago I couldn't get enough sleep and now I can't fall asleep at all! Ive been going to bed at around 4 am and back up at 8am. Theirs nothing todo at this odd hour and I miss sleeping with my husband! I'm so sick of this. I can't take sleep aids as I become addicted to them and I could try melatonin but in the past it hasn't helped. I'm hoping this insomnia passes soon because I really miss sleep. Christmas is coming and all I can say is Santa all I want is a diagnosis. I've yet to hear the results of my MRI which worries me. It's gonna be one of two things. 90% chance of MS and that little 10% chance that it's not worries me. I mean that means more tests and who knows what's wrong. Well that's my rant. I'm gonna watch my movie. Sleep good everyone. Wish I could join you!

Dizzyness

Here it is almost 1130pm. I've had a long day. Got a lot of house worn done and worked some more on Christmas lights outside and laundry. Roberts been at his dads hunting so it's been me and George all day. It's been a good day just long. So here I am thinking about going to bed and long behold it hits me. Sudden dizziness. The best way to describe it is the tipsy feeling when you've had a lil to much to drink but your not drunk. Everytime I close my eyes I wanna vomit. And so ya sleep is a long ways off. I was hoping it would pass quickly but it's gettig worse. So I sucked it up and toon Dramamine. It usually helps quickly but makes me feel very anti social which I hate. The lovely ups and downs I go through. I can focus on things close up and not be to bad. Def still dizzy bit anything more than a foot or two away ya it rocks bad and makes me sick. I've went almost a week this time between bad episodes like this. I'm just happy it hit after George went to bed. Nothing sucks more than having to keep up with a 4 yr old when your this dizzy. My neuro has upped my meds for my nerves in my feet from 100mg 3 times a day to 300mg 3 times a day. So tripled. But it's helping. Most times I still can't feel cold on the bottom of my feet but I can feel pressure better which is making walking much easier. Well now that I've vented about this god for saken dizziness I'm gonna lay down (eyes opennof corse) and pray the meds kick in fast!